Friday, July 27, 2012

Dream Wed!!!

Last summer, I attended and organized a lot of gatherings.  We had our get together almost every week with my friends and was able to spend more with them.  Most of my friends are now married, with kids, and others are engaged.  And I'm here, still single. I'm left behind.  LoL!

As I browsed profiles of my friends in their wedding and reading blogs, I feel like getting married today!  hahaha!!!

When I get married, I would like it to be SIMPLE but GOOFY, ROCK n ROLL, BLACK and WHITE at the BEACH -- DIY wedding!


I will be the one to organize my wedding, design my gown and groom's outfit, handmade accessories and invitations, centerpieces, souvenirs, reception, shoes, music selection, program, and flowers.



This will be the set-up for the wedding ceremony and would like to have it at Villa Arcadia, Talisay, Misamis Oriental or one of the beach in Dinagat, my hometown.

       The Invitation!
                                              
                                                              This serves as our wedding invitation.  
                                                                    I will going to find empty bottles, clean and recycled it.
                                                               No need to buy new things (with that, we can able 
                                                              to save money and nature..ahahha).  
                                                            All I need is a cork, paper, ribbon, shells and sand.
                                                          I will be the one to encode, design for the invitations.
                                                        oh diba, kuripot style lang?!  hahhaha 
                                                    oopphs, I mean matipid lang.
                                                    


the flower!


Customized wine bottle as our wedding souvenirs
with our pictures below.


our yummy black and white cake!
But I would like to have our picture at the top.
The bride wearing the groom's outfit and playing with her guitar
and a groom with the bride's outfit with mic.



















Sunday, July 22, 2012

Jealous Sister



Today, my cousin bought a cake.  I love cake.  I always get excited if somebody invites me to a birthday party or any occasion and it’s because of cake.

For my 24 years of existence, as far as I remember I only celebrate my birthday once.  I swear to God only once and don’t have cake..Ever!  It was my 23rd birthday which was the best party of my life.  My friends brought foods and donated for drinks.  I only celebrated it once but worth it. Eh kasi nga walang budget palagi.

When we were young, my mom always there and always has had a budget for birthday celebration of my sister Yenyen.  We have many pictures celebrating her birthday, yummy foods, many visitors; she wore nice dress, and drinks. 

My sister Yenyen was everybody’s favourite.  She has many friends.  I remember it so clearly, 3 of my aunts worked as a domestic helper in Singapore and Hongkong.  Everytime they sent a package (goodies from them), my sister Yen always have a share and I don’t have.  Sometimes, if I have share, it’s still not as many and nice compared to hers.  When my aunt married a foreigner and went to Cebu, they brought my sister with them and I was left at home alone while she was having fun strolling there.  She always had new notebooks while my brother and I received recycled notebooks given by our aunt (eldest sister of my mom).  As what I’ve always said, she’s everybody’s favourite.

She was popular for she’s good in dancing and drawing.  She was like a celebrity with many fans when she dances.  When we were teenagers, she has many admirers/suitors.  There was a time, I was a sophomore student (second year high school) I have had a crush with a junior drummer in a band and at the same time he was my school mate (1year ahead of me).  My sister and I went to a carnaval, I saw my crush (OMG, cheeks were turning red..hahhah so high school).  He said “hi” to me with a wholesome charming smile (and again, cheeks were turning red and this time knees shaking..hahhah soo high school).  I thought he will make friends for he was snob but oh no, he asked who’s the girl with me.  So I introduced my sister to him and they were shaking hands.  And there it goes, a jealous sister and I am talking about myself here.  I was pretending it was ok with me; I became a translator since Ate Yenyen can’t talk well.  We had fun though for he was the one who pay for us to ride a ferries wheel, bought a pop corn too (hahaha we went there with no budget for the rides. We supposed to watch only), and went home with our bodyguard (am talking about my crush who liked my sister).  But they never got into the stage of “more than friends” maybe because they don’t understand each other.


When I was about to end my high school years, she met another guy and then she got pregnant.  My mom wasn’t there and also my brother so only the two of us left at home.  I don’t know what to do; all I felt the time was hatred because of the fact that she got pregnant early with a man that doesn’t have plans in life. 
When I was in college, I always joined in extracurricular activities.  I love engaging myself in school activities and one of the best performances I did was when during our foundation day where we performed a folk dance with a little drama portraying a traditional way of courting a Filipina.  It was the highlight of the variety show where it was applauded by many.   My sister was very happy watching me performing and acting.  She said I was the best dancer in our group.  Well, maybe she’s just my number fan ;)) and we’re sisters..heheheh..


After the show, one late evening we had our chit chats just about everything.  Then as I look at her, I felt guilty that time.  She had many questions in life.  She asked me why she can’t talk well, why she fell in love and got pregnant early, why she can’t able to go to college and perform onstage too like what I did?  A lot of “why’s” and I don’t know the right answer or I don’t know how either.  She wants to go to school, she wants to have classmates, she wants to draw, she wants to have fun in school activities but she can’t.  Many guys looked at her for she’s pretty and sexy.  She wore nice dresses and I was just wearing simple old jeans or shorts and shirts, she’s friendly, outgoing and I was always staying at home before, she’s good in dancing and I was shy to dance, she’s pretty that is why she had many suitors but ended with a sad love story just because of her disability to talk well. 

I felt ashamed and guilty.  I don’t have the right to get jealous of her.  I have the ability and capability to do everything I want which my sister cannot.    Now, that I can able to buy new books for myself she’s the one who get jealous with me.  It’s not because I have new stuffs but because she can’t work and able to pamper herself, feed her daughter by her own. 

Lately, as I browsed profiles on Facebook I read a sister quotes and this is my favourite saying “Sister is probably the most competitive relationship within the family, but once the sisters are grown, it becomes the strongest relationship.”  She’s probably my competitor but my sister never thinks we’re in a competition.  Now that we grown up, our relationship becomes the strongest one (oh God, forgive me for being jealous sister).  .  I really admire her in the sense that despite of her disability, she remains calm, friendly, not complaining, good single mother, and happy.  My sister Yenyen is one of my inspirations to continue life and one of the reasons why I am motivated in reaching my goals.  She’s always part of my dreams.  No more jealousy now, promised! And I don't care if I don't have cake, the important is she always have one.

We are sisters, we are friends.

No matter what happen, I'm always by her side.
And I don't get jealous this time ;))