here it goes... still rockin' at 20

One morning, I woke up around five in the morning, tiptoeing so that my mother won't notice how freaked out I am. I woke up early for I was going to school for an activity to do.

People see me as Miss Fearless, Miss Unshakable and most of the time they misunderstand me on the way I act and on the way I talk but I don't need to pretend and change myself to please anybody. I've already wasted a lot of effort polishing that image to perfection to make people believe in me, to make myself even believe in me.

But how life has caught up with me all of a sudden has left me paralyzed with shock. For the first time in my 20 years of existence, I'm presented with the undeniable fact - I am all grown-up now. And I'm force to deal with it head on, myself.

There are times that I find myself alone late at night. Searching deep down in my soul, voice faltering, knees shaking and in serious cold sweat; I sometimes rocked myself to sleep, acting like a baby. I feel like I don't have the energy and strength to keep up. Reality has stripped me down to the core letting the whole world know my true color. Because the truth is, I am Miss Scary Cat, feeling like a loser, lost and confused like a little girl; afraid of the fact that I am an adult now. They said that 20 is the best age; a grown up lady, who needs to get off her huge dependency and groove with the times. A young woman, who needs to learn to keep up with technology.

So whenever I feel like choking myself to death, I lock myself in my room with red lights on, get down my knees and pray... "Dear God, make me a kid again because I am not ready for all of these. Adulthood scares the hell out of me."

Today’s Youth

“Today’s youth is very different before” I always hear that dialogue every time that there’s a dinner together with my family, grandparents, and relatives or even if there’s an occasion. It brings headache why we teens sometimes misunderstood. I asked myself why they always compare us of youth before and today.

But today’s youth is creative, easily cope up with things, easily learn, and fond of using new technology. When I was eating there in Panaderia bake shop, I hear the 2 ladies talking about their kids –“my son is very lazy and cannot able to finish his works because of playing online games in computer.” And even me sometimes I cannot able to finish household chores because of texting my friends with my cell phone.

Today’s youth is very independent. They want to stand on their own feet and impetuous teens or hotheaded. Some of the values being practiced by Filipinos before like kissing the hands of elders is slowly fade away. It’s not being practiced by many teens now unlike before.

What do you think is the best thing to do? Is it not good if we will combined the values now and before? Be creative and fond of new technology and at the same time more responsible and respectful.

Teenage blues

Teen years are the best years where puppy love and admiration are experienced. And being in this stage, one will most probably feel confused. Accordingly, young people always have problems that they sometimes become rebellious though there are still some who listen to their parents. They are oftentimes faced with a number of pressures from peers, parents, school and environment.
And here are some gentle ways which help to wash teenage blues:
1. Use silence – it’s especially effective when a teen is agitated, noticeably upset, defensive, hostile or feeling down.
2. Be a kind presence – it’s good when parents intend to jump quickly to fix the problems when a teen is upset and needs advice. Though there are things that cannot be easily fixed by parents but please just be kind and obedient in their presence.
3. Be served with good food – perhaps you had a favorite aunt or grandparent that when you visited them, you felt relaxed and understood. Instead of serving advice or criticism, they served you something good to eat and you felt comforted. Go to them and request them to cook your favorite food to ease your feelings.
Most of the time, teens are misunderstood but it is just a sort of open communication. More so, what we have experienced and about to experience are part and parcel of growing up to become better individuals and children of God.