A Reflection

How unfair life is? Until now, I am still searching for the right answer and even questioned God why.

During our training at Butuan Child Care and Therapy Center, I learned a lot more than I expected. I felt so much sadness for all the kids having deficiencies such as Down’s syndrome, learning disabilities, autism, cerebral palsy, mental retardation, ADHD or Attention-deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder and it was so hard not to get discouraged. So many questions running through my head: Will they always be like this? Will they have friends? Will they ever be in school with typically developing children and have fun? I know how it feels to be one of the parents or a member of the family when one of the members has one of these deficiencies.

One week training at BCCTC has taught me a very great deal. It’s not frustration that I felt but a challenge my patience and do my very best to teach them. It’s not about to scold them when they commit mistakes but to understand their behaviour, and give more attention for they needed it, of course, not to tolerate them all through the time. Though behind their smiles, still, I can’t hide my feelings on how touched I was with their stories and seems like my heart bleeds, turned into pieces. They may not acquire the skills to be productive members of society but we should fight for services as long as we can in order for them to improve, not feel regression, and ease their burden. We may be not a developmental doctor, therapist, but we can truly give care, heart, and soul.

There are times that I feel hopeless and don’t know what else to do to solve some problems of mine but beyond my failures, sacrifices, hardships, and obstacles but I can say that I am still lucky no matter how heavy it is to carry the world. I can do whatever I want in which kids at BCCTC cannot do and one major thing I realize is not to look at the big picture but to appreciate small things, see beauty and miracle in small steps.